2009年12月22日 星期二
i remember lots of things and o yes. many and a lots of things evacuate in my mind loowwll. i really dun know what to do when that tym comes. arg. i alw8s think of many things. and many of them means nothing XD ahaha. these past few days, someone really broke my heart. the sad part is, we haven't see each other ever since. then someone told me that she is having trouble wif her gf. o w8. gf.? O.o i really dun know how to react in that moment. i wan to cry then. note. second tym of crying. but arg. who cares.? that person only knows is to hurt me inside. eventhough i cannot do anything but to cry, theory is weak inside o. that night, i really cannot stop crying on my bed urg. fortunately, i slept easily bcos of heavy emotion. how i wish i were a doll.. numb. and a puppet of whatever the owner wans to do. again, who cares.? who cares if my heart is breaking slowly.? who cares if many people are against us.? who cares.? who cares.? crazy me. pig. pig. now, idc from whatever anyone tells of that person to me. eventhough i know before that inside, it hurts a lot. that is why i called this sweet jigoku ♥. i love pain. as i often get used to it. everytime i hear something bad or something annoying abt anybody or abt myself, i'll just ignore them or let them taste my awful words. for me, actions do not speak louder than words. it cannot be helped. since most of us are suffering of such disease. a love disease. i only care abt myself sometimes, but don't u get it.? u do it also to urself duhh.. so why blame it all to me.? loowwll. if u really get what i mean, u can comment here to my second blog. u can also visit my 1st blog → -- ♥ dada here. what else do people wan.? they are just complaining of everything. they are like nonstop car toys. so irritating. urg crazy me again. what am i saying.? get away to the topic loowwll. now, i dun wan to fall in ♥ again. it only makes my mind so messy. like that of a pig. uuaaah. ara ara.. i just enjoy myself from reading manga [ love love love seikon no quasar. ] and from watching anime. i am really geting sooo hahahappyy wif it. ja nee` ♥
凌晨3:56 
-- dada [ sweet jigoku ♥ ]
